Turag Ponders

Who’s Gonna Take the Weight? Turag’s Personal Journal 9/22/109 So digest as I suggest we take a good look At who’s who while I’m readin’ from my good book And let’s dig into every nook and every cranny Set your mind free as I slam these thoughts And just like a jammy goes pow You’re gonna see what I’m sayin’ now You can’t be sleepin’ ‘Cause things are gettin’ crazy You better stop being lazy There’s many people frontin’ And many brothers droppin’ All because of dumb things, let me tell you somethin’ I’ve been through so much that I’m such A maniac, but I still act out of faith That we can get the shit together so I break On fools with no rhymes skills messin’ up the flow And people with no sense who be movin’ much too slow And just imagine if each one is teachin’ one We’ll come together so that we become A strong force, then we can stay on course Find your direction through introspection And for my people out there I got a question Can we be the sole controllers of our fate? Now who’s gonna take the weight? The weight of the world is heavy on my mind So as my feelings unwind I find That some try to be down just ’cause it’s trendy Others fall victim to envy But I’ll take the road less travelled So I can see all my hopes and my dreams unravel Relievin’ your stress, expressin’ my interest In the situation that you’re facin’ That’s why I’m down with the Nation Spirituality supports reality We gotta fight with the right mentality So we can gain what is rightfully ours Now who’s gonna take the weight? So says a song that I recently discovered in Tolkeen, and it has truly gotten me thinking about my role here in the group. I realize that Sister Rebecca thinks that I have issues with women, which of course I do not. What I do have issue with is rushing into things without thought. I know that Rex wants me to balance Nosmo’s impulses, for his supreme confidence makes him rush headlong, but it is hard when ThorFrid does the same thing. I worry that with Keegan gone I am the only one who thinks before acting- well, Sister Rebecca does, but she will contradict me just to be contrary. I feel alone, and wonder if I should give in to the pace, and not be so cautious. I told Nosmo that Turbo Trimadore Turag is one of my favorite names- he said that was who I was when I was riding Lennata, my wing board. Perhaps it is time to throw caution to the wind, and go with their flow. Author note- I will be adding a video that relates to most logs. This one is from the one and only Gang Starr- RIP Guru.  The lyrics above are from this song. Who's Gonna Take the Weight?

Lucryllin seems to be more reserved in his impulses as well.  Benna seems to have matured, and what little impulses she had were curbed... unless she's being goaded or coaxed by her fellow teammates.  Sister Rebecca is more on the plan than rush side.  Let's hope that the 2 that lean toward hubris and rushing are overbalanced by the planners more often than not.

Gaitkeeper said: Lucryllin seems to be more reserved in his impulses as well.  Benna seems to have matured, and what little impulses she had were curbed... unless she's being goaded or coaxed by her fellow teammates.  Sister Rebecca is more on the plan than rush side.  Let's hope that the 2 that lean toward hubris and rushing are overbalanced by the planners more often than not. Turag feels that he does not know Lucryllin at all yet.  Benna's change is still very new, so still hard to judge.  Turag acknowledged Rebecca's patience, but she is consistently contrary to Turag.  Thus in character he is questioning being "Captain Slow."

Mr. Turag (feels strange still calling you this, but you are the wisest of all of us...it still feels fitting that way), you don't need to worry. Just be you.  That is all we can ask.  One thing that I have learned on my journey to the Waste was that things turn out fine in the end.  It is like a great energy that is pulling us in the right direction.  I know things seem crazy at times, but I know that the storm will eventually pass.  Trust me.  I have learned a thing or two...and you were always one of my inspirations that helped me get through a lot of bad situations.  I feel that the reason I was brought back to you and Fenrir after those eight years (I really did not know if I would ever return, I can't tell you how often I prayed to find a way back), was to bring that balance that you need.  Mr. Keegan's departure was not on you, I feel quite responsible for it.  I been having an idea for a device that could allow us to reign in ThorFrid's nature, without changing her one bit.  It is a slight modification in my gun.  It won't put her to sleep, like Mr. Keegan always did.  I feel that was wrong.  ThorFrid needs to be ThorFrid, just as much as you need to be Mr. Turag.  I will draw up some plans for later...it may not even need your technowizardry, just a little bit of engineering.

Turag is always excited to work on something completely new....