Akiran's head held low, knees in the dirt as he plead for forgiveness, his eyes barely daring to look up and meet Shavel's and see the disgust and wrath on his elder's face. He had relived this moment through his dreams every night, or at least those that he failed to indulge himself into oblivion. He truly should be used to this. And in the mornings he often told himself that he was, that this torment no longer held meaning, he had seen it all. But the shame, fear, and utter sense of loneliness that fills him as he relives Shavel's banishment, and sees the bodies of his fallen brothers. Exposed the lie no matter how many times he tried to tell it. The scene shifts from Shavel to a simply made black iron shield, sturdy but roughly forged. His first creation, left behind in a field filled with the bodies of his clan, his brothers. He often tries to look away, close his eyes, covers his face anything to not have to see. But the dream has never allowed him to avoid what comes next. Except tonight his grey eyes lined with fear and then surprise as he takes in the scene in front of him, seeing his companions in place of his brothers. His uncertain and hesitant "Wh..What is this? This ..this... isn't right." Looking around he sees a warrior bearing the crest of the Legion plunging his blade into a fallen body. And for a moment the Dragonborn feels a spark of hope. The Legion were if not friends at the very least allies, he had served with them for years. He opens his snout to call for help, but before he can speak the warrior roughly tears his blade free, snapping bones and marking the ground with a stream of blood. And as the red tide seeps out, the body comes into focus, a young woman. It takes a moment for Akiran to realizes that it's Lilli, the kid. His scales flare in a mixture of anger and fear, as he tries to shout "She's with us! Leave her the fuck alone and find a healer!" but nothing comes out. A voice from behind Akiran speaks. "What do you see here, Akiran?" The Dragonborn flinches, Shavel was the only one who speaks to him in these dreams. Despite himself his eyes sift through the scene in front of him, stopping on each of his dead companions and ending on Lilli. He opens his snout, looking for some type of retort, an insult, a joke, anything. But the sarcastic barbs that generally come easily get stuck in his throat. His tone defeated he says "Death. Just .....death." Pausing for a moment he adds "Why?"