Rae awakens on the evening of the 15th, and there are merciful seconds after the inky darkness of daysleep gives way to her bedroom in which she is blissfully unaware of herself. When all that had transpired in the previous evening does crawl itself to the forefront of her mind, she sits up and looks over to her thoroughly blacked out bedroom window. The challenges and threats before her feel insurmountable, as her thoughts move from Gabriel to Aubrey to the Strix. At this final memory, she thinks back to her research on the various creatures and histories of the hidden world of Kindred. She finds her thoughts to be blessedly unimpeded by the supernatural violations endured the night before. As the image of the Strix takes center stage in her mind; facts, stories, fears, and figures take shape in the tidy symphony of knowledge that she has so thoroughly honed over the course of her life. She is now properly able to feel the abject terror owed to the race of beings who have stalked foreboding shadows since humanity still dwelled in caves. The beings who seek to punish the Kindred for living what they see as a lie. The malign spirits who can possess bodies dead and living, wishing for nothing more than to sink their talons deep into the myriad agonies that Kindred and kine can feel and bring the dredged up suffering to their mouths to consume with a singularly unique relish. These are the creatures that Rae had prayed never to encounter. And then there is the matter of this new gift for shadows that had so utterly changed her, which she had been unable to find any writings on in her personal collection. In the wake of the many revelations of the previous night, Rae is disturbed to find that something has been altered, left deformed and ill-functioning. The encounter with the Strix ruptured something in her psyche, and all can focus on as she lies still in her bed is how calm and controlled the last five years had been. The intoxicating joy of discovering lost secrets and attaining ancient understandings, the reverie and reassurance of her blood amplifying her favored traits, and her trust in her covenant and Eve. And now, in just a week, nearly everything had lost its order and left her unlife near beyond recognition to what it once was. She thought she was going to have to kill Gabriel, and she’s still not out of the woods as far as he’s concerned. For the killing on Brasenose grounds she would likely be severely punished by the Concord, if she isn’t brought to her end by the Circle first. The word of a narcissistic Daeva starlet that “things would be alright” strains credulity, particularly while under the influence of her Majesty. Rae had told her so much. And she hated to realize that part of her enjoyed it, enjoyed letting the bulwark come down to tell someone, anyone, that she’d been losing her mind over the last week. She feels almost thankful that the Strix had rendered her a near invalid, as it kept her from spilling any other secrets to Aubrey during their call. It hardly seems like a coincidence that it appeared just moments after her shadowy gifts manifested. Perhaps it had taken insult to her awakening to the dark. Or maybe there are many of them already here at Oxford, and one just happened to take notice. Either way, these mistakes could not continue. Before she moves forward into the dangerous nights that fall upon Oxford’s present, she would have to rectify what she’d done. ”If I want to survive, I need to be better. I… Eve. ” Pulling out her phone, she quickly types out a message. Many things happened last night. Will send an email with details. But I was attacked by a Strix last night, and others could be at Oxford. Please be careful, trust no one. Going to set things right tonight. Thank you for everything, Genevieve. I love you. She then pulls out her laptop to send an email, addressed to both Eve and Professor McFarlane. Good Evening, I bear unfortunate news. A member of the inquisitive party, Aubrey Knight, used her gifts on me to get me to confess everything to her. They now know that I’m the one they’re looking for, and that the both of you knew of what I’d done. Please do what is needed in order to stay safe. Beyond this, I’m sorry to report that I was attacked by a Strix last night that rendered me profoundly disoriented and unable to access my greater faculties for the remainder of the evening. This is deeply troubling and I hope to spread the word of this as quickly and loudly as I can. I demonstrated new gifts last night that seem to be connected to them somehow. Lastly, I will do what is right to prevent further bedlam tonight. I shall relinquish myself into the hands of my pursuers. None of this negates the service that I owe you for your assistance, Professor McFarlane, and it shall be honored if I retain a presence here at Oxford. Thank you both for all the ways in which you have helped me. Sincerely, Raziel Andrews Closing her laptop, she grabs her things and looks to Lotus before setting out for Brasenose. “It’s been an honor, Lotus. While I have no idea just who or what the bloody hell you are, I thank you for the time that you’ve spent with me.”