The Social Monster

Thank you Stephen. I am aware of the specific part where I put Syvil's life ahead of everything else. But it is always good to be reminded and to have it looked to from angles. Personally I see this part of my style as both a source of joy and trouble; it is fun to try to keep a character alive, and getting to play said character for a long time. But flip side; it can cause some anxiety and a tendency to meta game even though I actually don't want to do either. Ithiloneth M. said: Keeping Syvil alive - I do not like my characters dying, with the exception of the rare times when I decide that it is time, at which point I have been known to revel in it. But then it is usually with some agency; taking risks or actively making a sacrifice. Advance Syvil's character; both RP and mechanics wise - I love mechanics, but I also like creating a story for my character; bes is when the two combine. Make Syvil stay true to himself - Not yet sure just what this means, as Syvil's character is becoming ever more fractioned as I try to re-examine my playstyle Gaining gold and Experience - This is a means to an end most of the time, and often I find both come as a result of keeping Syvil alive. Advancing the story as a whole - Always good fun! It is one of the main reasons to play. Yet I find this is not a priority, as it will happen, sooner or later. That said I do like to push for "today's goal", but that doesn't need to be the main plot. In either case. I think I've said my piece. Not intending to de-rail the conversation.

Stephen Dove said: @Josh Since you are the one who likes playing this type of character (Raziel was similar if I recall) I suggest you take responsibility for portraying these characters in a more sympathetic light. You can play the same types of characters but you have to learn to show their weeknesses; otherwise people cannot see their humanity and so can't relate to them. the thing with that is Erolith does not know anyone to well when he does people get a glimpse to his real nature Syvil has seen him losse control and then be very weak and a shadow of a man the same can be said with Cain he has see Erolith in a way know one has when he stayed with him and jordan in the rp you were in stephen and the last is with ffiona her and Erolith as gotten really close and she knows more about his past than anyone and i tried to give more insight to Eroliths painful and hard passed in my veiled one post but know one wanted to continue so it went know where i  play my character genuine if i can

and i hinted at my weakness and soft hearted nature and connection with Ffiona when i walked over to her and picked up a rabbit i like to hint things like that instead of just saying im a nice person deep down but im troubled i like to show it in little ways but i dont think people noticed it

Ithiloneth M. said: I've actually been waiting for Boone to flip for some time now At one point I was expecting the possibility of mounting a raid on the tower of the hand to rescue Adolpho, that might have gotten... interesting... Josh, as I've said repeatedly, I dont think you ever at any point intended any offense or anything but it did frustrate me a little being used as a vehicle to advance your character(I do actually mean a little too, I only mentioned it first in a vaguely worded offhand comment that has been rather bigged up by having to re-explain and clarify) and that is kind of how it came across to me with your approach, particularly since the timing of it was abysmal. Also even now when you explain your motivations, whether or not the book is involved, this information about the coming war you say want to impart has so far been conditioned on you being able to show off this runic street and having my character enter your character's super secret inner circle. That is primarily what i mean about not wanting to get involved with you out of session, besides this whole thing blowing up and making things tense, I also really, really, really do not want to play the secret society game with Boone. I maintain though that how I played Boone was well within character, Boone not only can and but he has gotten snappy at people before in this campaign. Reskin and Lydika could well attest to that as could Stephen if he puts on Slint's hat. I said before about timing and I think Stephen mentioned it too that your IC approach was also litterally just after Marokin had 'pestered' Boone for the third or fourth time about the book. He does strive to be nice and kind, but he doesn't always manage it. Since you say you like the idea of more real characters who are flawed perhaps you would appreciate the idea of someone who strives for perfection but fails to meet it. Boone strives to perfectly embody the tenets of his 'religion' but sometimes he fails, because he isn't perfect. His religion preaches moderation, but he regularly gets wasted on fine cider with Adolpho. His religions preaches non-violence, but he is a skilled bowman that has killed people, albeit in self defense. His religion preaches honesty, but he is prepared to withhold information in certain circumstances and that time you turned into lydia he even grudgingly went along with the deception. Speaking of which, in both of the missions Boone has been in with Mindartis, Mindartis has never been particularly nice to the party nevermind the NPCs who he's lied to, deceived, used his power to dominate their minds and even harm them - with no apparant concern or even attempt to use less 'unsavoury' methods first. Showing up out of the blue being excessively nice and polite after all that is obviously going to be met with suspicion at least.

Since we had the RP session yesterday I wanted to clarify a few things and ask you if you have request to me. I realized that the way I play Marokin easily sidetracks conversations because he wants to know about certain details and that causes conversations to drift off. I will in the future try to keep these things separate. A thing that needs clarification: Marokin wants to appear important. He often presents himself in a way that he knows more than he actually does. There are some things he does indeed know but I assure you about a lot of things he has NO FUCKING CLUE ;) but as a player of the political game to appear to be not knowing will get you get dispatched at best, killed at worst.  Most of the knowledge he has is out there with other players and to my surprise barely people come and ask me directly for information (the few that did are Simon and Josh).  Another thing that has to do with me as a player: If there is an extended moment of silence I will start to ask people or start talking. It is very hard for me not to do this. I will try in future because I feel like I am talking waaaaaaaaaay too much :(

that sounds good but dont feel it is just you we all do things that are not great in the game and we all just need to make little changes to these things if and when they come up i like marokin as a character so dont feel to bad 

PK; Marokin's character is often fun and amusing, it was just the timing in that particular session. It was kind of annoying because it shifted focus off of Mindartis. But that's going to happen sometimes; and partly it happened this time because no one really engaged with Josh's storyline...............