The next several days of travel are quiet, save for the grumblings of the caravan workers and the rattle of the wagon wheels under load. The road is calm, open, and clear for several days. As the caravan comes to a stop for the evening and everyone settles in for the night, Lilliana approaches Akiran. "Would you mind coming with me to collect some firewood?" Finishing brushing out Aurum's gleaming coat, having spent the journey finding tasks to keep himself busy. Turning towards Lilli he nods and says , "I'll give ya a hand, good ta get a lay of da land with us so close to Dragonvale." Lilli smiles and nods, she's quiet as she leads the pair away from the encampment in search of some fallen timber; in fact, she'd been very quiet and insular for much of this day's ride. She was finally starting to get used to riding, she wasn't nearly as sore as she'd been the first night; she'd barely slept at all from the pain of the long ride and the awkwardness of her leg. Still, there was a bit of a hitch to her step with the artificial leg as they go further away. After several minutes of companionable silence, she stops and stares up towards the darkening sky. "It's my birthday today." She says quietly, still not looking away from the sky, searching for something, but what she didn't yet know. The Dragonborn's snout drops, with all of the conflict & terrible shit they'd been through he was expecting some new horror. Flexing his snout into a human smile he pats Lilli on the back and bellows "Happy Birthday!!" Letting out a low sing songy whistle. "Ya had me worried! Thought ya was going ta tell me da moon itself was out ta get us." Patting his pockets " I wish I knew, I woulda picked up a nice bottle 'fore we got kicked outta town." Taking a closer look and seeing Lilli's more wistful mood, he adds "How ya doing with it? A name day without ya people can be hard ta get through." His eyes growing soft & thoughtful he adds with an uncertain tone. "Not sure if I've had one in exile that was better than back home." Lilli turns her gaze away from sky to Akiran with a melancholic smile. "You don't need to get me anything, Akiran, but thank you, I appreciate the thought." She starts walking again, collecting small branches and some twigs they could use for kindling. She glances over her shoulder a few times to make sure no one else was within earshot. "I had forgotten we were coming up on the day until this morning, and it got me thinking on a lot of things. When I was younger, when my power first manifested, not my magical powers, but the other stuff, I was always asked to sacrifice my own needs and wants for the greater good. At first I was happy to do it, because it made my parents feel good, feel... needed, I guess? But the more it went on, I started to resent it and them in a way. So when I ran away, I told myself I would never put someone else before myself. And I lived up to that, for a long time. Six years or so by my best guess that I've been away from home. Until now, because of Ascian. Because this is bigger than any single person.” She stops and turns towards Akiran, lowering her voice and glancing over his shoulder towards the encampment. "I didn't do it for him, but because and I hate to say this... but for the greater good. If we had rushed off to deal with those cultists, I think he would have pursued Faerus' intentions without us. I don't trust him at all, Akiran. I was hoping to have this conversation with Thezra as well, because I know Katrin and Thrandimir will try to stop us, but we cannot allow him to do Faerus' bidding. If we cannot break his hold over Ascian, and he tries to destroy anymore of the seals holding back Vecna. You and I have to stop him, in whatever way we have to." With a shake of his snout he grumbles out. "Da greater good." Snorting, he continues, "Nothin more dangerous than da greater good. Can mean anything ta anyone, an' ta many are ready ta die for it." Looking at Lilli, he says, "It was your call but we shoulda went ta gut da Archon." His tone growing just slightly colder. "Ya gotta know what ya want an' be willin ta fight for it. Thezra had it right, they don't care 'bout us. After Dragonvale, it'll be the Shadowfell, and who the hell knows what else after that. Thrand, Da Pale One & Katrin are damn near family. They'll keep puttin themselves first." B lowing out a deep breath through his nostrils Akiran looks back to Lilli "It's a long story but I'm tryin' ta do some good too. But ya gotta know they won't stand by. They'll kill ya ta protect him an' go ta sleep with a clear conscious." His voice softens and in a kinder tone says "I got ya back kid, but don't throw ya life away. I'm with this crew ta help ya get free of da cult & ta get ridda of da beast's mark. Thezra had da right of it, if ya want ta da good, we'd be better off findin a new outfit. Hell all we're doin with Faerus' is cleaning up Da Pale One's mess. Find what ya want, an' make sure they give as much as they get." Lilli's cheeks flush with a slight dark purplish glow beneath her pale skin either with embarrassment or frustration, Akiran isn't sure. "I know what you're saying, Akiran and I get that, but... what good is living a few more days if Vecna gets released and ends the world anyway?" She lets out a huff and takes a few steps away. "I don't want to hurt any of them and I would like to see Ascian get out from under the influence of this being, not because I care for him one way or another, but because I hate to see anyone being manipulated that way." She glances back over her shoulder at Akiran. "I know how that feels; having some higher power trying to use you for their own goals. I was strong enough to break away from that influence, but Ascian isn't. I don't know what trauma he has faced in this life, but the boy is pitiful. And let me be clear, I do not care for him, this is about the people I do care about; myself, you, even my misguided family. If we walk away from this now, we both know that he will get away from Katrin and Thrandimir, and he will continue breaking these shackles. But maybe we can succeed in breaking the connection to Faerus and whatever hold he has over Ascian. Once we have succeeded in that, if they refuse to help us with the things that we need help with." She walks over to him, reaches up, and touches the spot on Akiran's arm where the dragon's symbol still lingers, "Then we walk away. We take care of ourselves, you and me. Maybe find some other good folks to join up with us, but my friend, I have to at least try. I don't think this is something I can walk away from. I hope you're with me on this, Akiran, I cannot do it alone, but we have probably lingered out here long enough. The others would not react will to this conversation. What say we head back?" It takes a moment for Akiran to respond. "I'm serious 'bout tryin' ta da some good. An' I'll back ya as much as I can, but I promised myself a long time ago I'd never through my life away." Flexing his snout back into a smile, he says, "But that's enough of depressing shit for one day. Let's go see if we can find a bottle an' ring in ya day in style!" Lilliana gives Akiran a hard look, before breaking into a laugh. "That's fair, my friend! Let's do just that!"