Ascian's attention is pointedly on the straw littering the stable floor as Marianne speaks before silver fur eclipses it, the smiling, excited face of Ember filling his view. He's not even touched the wolf before he already feels tension in his shoulders loosening, the vice on his ribs beginning to grant reprieve. Marianne's speaking to him and dimly, he knows that; processes the words in a part of his brain that ultimately doesn't matter as he drops to one knee and scans through grey eyes, methodically stroking thick, familiar fur. Ember, the only one here who had seen it all with him; the crystal, Casimir, Faerus. Shadowfell. What does Daerheim mean to you? The quiet is uncomfortable by the time he breaks it, forcing words to come to lips that don't want to move. The others likely hated him, and he knew that. Perhaps even rightfully so. He didn't know that anything he said could fix that; not now, not with the damage that had been done. It's Casimir's voice that ultimately connects the dots between the parts of him focused on Ember and the sorceress, a bridge he forces himself to walk upon with dreaded, heavy steps. Everyone needs friends. "I didn't know it would be there. At the manor," he says stiffly at last, fingers unceasing in their path down Ember's side as he intently focuses on it. "When I got there I could...feel something. It wasn't a pull, but...something close. I knew it was calling me downstairs, but I didn't know why. Or what it was. But I went, and Thrandimir came too, and there was a wall. They were hiding it. The king, and the others. And once we got past that, there was a crystal. It wanted..." He falters and so does his hand, not quite knowing how to describe what the crystal wanted, or how he knew. Not without mentioning Faerus, and that was a different explanation entirely. "I knew I needed to break it. So I did." His palm moves again, faster now and urgent as he watches silver strands bend beneath his touch. "But I didn't know what would happen. I didn't know there were crystals. Or anything about Daer...the city. Not really."