LOCATION: Outside the Blue Lotus DATE: 3rd of Vult CHARACTERS: Nala, Blue, Hendrick It wasn't until Nala's feet found solid ground that she allowed everything to come to the surface. Everything was primal; fear, pain, instinct...until it wasn't. Her feet found earth, and she blinked. Once, twice, and then her memories hit her like the lightning rail. She cried out in pain as a migraine tore through her brain, small explosions of red and orange behind her eyelids. She grabbed her head, briefly worried that the book was exacting its revenge. In a way, it was. The memories began with the most recent and worked backwards, a horrifying montage of trauma. She saw Rune's death, Jeezargo's , Lupin's , all of the guards they were being accused of killing...things she had been trying to understand for months suddenly became so clear. Then she remembered Dorn's death. Crow's . Her breathing was ragged and her eyes were flitting around her surroundings, trying to anchor her to the present, but she was too far gone. Then, the memories grew darker. She saw the slaughter of dozens of her people, performed for the delight of pure evil. She saw her older sisters beaten until their bodies lay broken before her. She smells the stench of decay nearly fifteen years later...for the first time? No. Her insides twist and she falls to her knees, heaving until her body expels everything inside her stomach. But even then, the memories don't stop. Nala begins to see the horrific acts done by her own hand. She sees herself attack Hendrick and Zeth . She remembers the rage as she destroyed Jeezargo . She even remembers the exact feeling of her first eldritch blast, powerful enough to kill her slaver. Finally, her stomach empty, Nala lays on the ground, unmoving. Silent. Tears stream down her face, her mouth is open in pure shock. Poetically, she almost mimics that which she could not conceive only moments ago. Death. She sounds out the word in her mind. The purpose of life; that which drives all of humanity is the knowledge of death. She felt afraid. She felt broken. She almost wished that she could forget again, but the thought filled her with shame, so she pushed it away. What have I done? Nala Delmirev the Deathless, Warlock of Tul Oreshka , is no more.